The last week has been a bit of a weird one for me… Firstly, losing the person I most cared about, spending a whole day in bed, having a fantastic night out and being too drunk to go to work the next day and therefore nearly getting fired, applying for a course I actually want to do and then having that person come back into my life again. It’s just all so confusing, yet so so good!
Whatever happens, I’ve realised that the reason why I react so badly to things is just me; it’s how I think about it all. And all of these events are just lessons and practice so that one day, I’ll learn to get it right straight away.
The most important part of the week (apart from the obvious) was finally deciding what I want to do with my life. It’s not a career in which has a lot of job opportunities… But to be honest, that just drives me even more. That’s the mistake I made before – going for a career which I knew I could most probably be successful in rather than one in which I wanted to be successful in. BIG difference. I feel like this is my thing and I’m very excited about starting this. I’ve always changed my mind so much when it came to this kind of thing but I think, no I’m sure, that this is what I want to spend the rest of my life doing.
Final thing is that I’ve learnt that I’m actually really, really stubborn. I knew I was a little bit but not this much! Wow, I do not give up easily! Here’s to better and bigger things, here’s to the future!