I love life so much right now, and even though I’m scared and worried and I still have down days, I can still see the good things and more importantly, I can still see my bright future. I love having things, like my laptop and my tv. I love reading books and listening to music, singing and dancing along like no one is watching. And who cares if anyone is anyway.
I have my noticeboards infront of me reminding me of all the great things that life has to offer and reminding me of all the reasons why I have to keep fighting. It reminds me of things to enjoy and finally, it tells me the truth. The truth about love, about life and about me. It has me submerged in my thoughts without a care in the world.
I love watching tv whilst eating treats like ice cream or cake or chocolate and not even caring. I love the warmth of my room surrounded by all my belongings; a little gold christmas tree sparkling in the corner of my eye. I love writing and imagining things. Not that I don’t love things as they are but the fact that words can become real within a matter of minutes, to me, is amazing.
I love remembering all the good times, with past friends, current friends, past boyfriends, family and myself too. I love making myself look great, watching my face become a masterpiece as each piece of make-up is applied. And I love wearing nice clothes, showing off what I’ve got and feeling great. But I also love shopping for new clothes too. It’s the experience that I love, it’s the fun. Shopping makes a girl giddy and invincible like she could conquer the world.
I love experiencing all of these great things after a hard day at work or university or just life in general. Somehow just being back in your own comforts, snuggled up on your pjs, in the warm with a mug of hot coco whilst watching a film takes away the stresses of everyday life and reminds you of life itself.
Life is right out there, it’s the technology that we use, the programs we get sucked into, the foods we indulge in, the duvet we snuggle down into, the men we get attracted to, the clothes we adore, the things we make, the belongings we collect, the jewellery that sparkles, the photographs we take, the presents we give, the times we share, the passion we create, the images we design, the people we meet, the ones who stay as well as the ones who go.
I love the fact that I can create my own future and I can be whatever I want to be. I love that there is so much to explore and there are so many more adventures out there that outweigh the negatives that could ever be generated.
I love the fact that when I feel down, I can look at the world and it makes me smile, it makes me happy. There is always a reason to smile, just look around the corner. It’s hard to let go but I love that sometimes it just doesn’t matter.
P.s my future is in my own hands.


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