It’s been a while since I’ve written anything on here or at all and I’ve probably lost the ability to write, but inspiration takes time. I’ve been different places, seen amazing things and done some interesting things over the last week. I went home for 4 days and had a great time. It was so lovely to see my mum, I had missed her! We had such a fantastic time at the beach and as most of you have seen, took lots of photos along the way. I mostly always take photographs when I’m out and about, purely to document my journey and this weekend was no different. Those photos remind me of the great things in life that I occasionally forget stupidly. But I think sometimes we do forget what is important but when you are reminded of it, it makes it so much better!
Today is my mum’s birthday so happy birthday to you, as I know you’ll read this some time. Thank you for everything that you’ve done for me over the last 20 years and I hope you had a lovely weekend!
If I was asked to describe my day in 2 words I’d say ‘mixed emotions’ and I can’t explain it in any other way, because for every slightly bad thing that occurred, another good thing happened to counteract it, like my guardian angel. An early morning alongside an ugly cold didn’t make for a great day, but my lectures were great and I definitely realised that this is the path for me, finally. Now that’s one large weight of off my shoulders! As well as having my career temporarily marked out for me, I was able to pay my rent and wandered into town with my house mate with one of the biggest grins on my face for a long while! In light of the earlier success, I decided to spend some of my new found richness. If only! Some new make-up and a bag of reduced lettuce. How did that make me happy? Strange. On arriving home, I tried out my new make-up and has finally found the foundation colour to match my skin tone. Hurray! No more looking like a vampire! Everything seems to be making me happy today; even not getting a reply from the ‘once destined to be with’ guy couldn’t phase me. I was on a roll! And for once, I was happy being me. It’s been a long time coming but it’s such a relief saying that. Sometimes I receive these little thoughts trying to destroy my new found happiness and I start to panic but then I realise at this current moment in time, what do I have to worry about? And even if I do have worries, I can finally overcome that and put it to the back of my mind. I never thought my life could get better but everyday seems like a brand new day and things are getting better and better! So, that was my week and next week should be even better, with the arrival of my new camera and a trip to Portsmouth in the wings. It’s such a beautiful place and I’m excited to see many people, and the ones who don’t want to see me can’t spoil this for me. Once down, never down again. For obvious reasons, I will document my trip in writing and photos on Facebook and hopefully the success will continue throughout!